what did i do?

i broke up with my boyfriend because he slept with someone else and it REALLY hurt my feelings. I wasnt made to share such intimate things, although i tried. i wanted to make the magic happen that caught me up in dreams of unspoken and dangerous things. the searing of your eyes cut threw me and i left you waiting for more. one foot in and one foot out im not sure sure there will ever be more than this. so i broke my word and i asked you to hurt your loves and live a life with me. but what did i do? im not sure what the pieces unfolding will be. like a puzzle i cannot sit still enough to turn over, i detect what the temperature is for your heart. its either broken or breaking and there is one and only one who can put it back together. did i get what i want and did you decide to stay where you are happiest. what is right for me and where will your life take you next. what did i do, and will god forgive me for loving you?