Longest night of the year

The more I try to keep the more I loose. Like a grip I cannot hold clenched in my tiny fists that struggle so hard, to let go. I talk in riddles and the lines between us have blurred. I can no longer face you so I turn away, trying to makes self believe I would stay no matter what. As soberity hits my mind I begin to wander away. I recognize the feeling I don't like to feel and the things you do in private are exposed. My trust abandons you and for shelter I roam. My heart was broken along time ago, the mending of your arms temporary as I faint against your embrace. I know one day I will have the strength to walk away and I know your path is your own.