I'm so angry.
What will take this pain away.?
Where i Amos where is Alex where am I?
Who I was then is not who I want to be, I'm hurting, I'm alone, no one wants to hear my story anymore. The moment I tell secrets the men leave. Rejected once more, again. Given myself away what else can I say. He wanted to do someone else, do something else, and so did I. That's why I didn't wake up in time, that's why the light had left my eyes. My mouth watered for the comfort of our home our bodies safe in bed, entertwined. Salty now because you lied you premeditated and you left me. You left me the words cold and clear. I fought you I fought myself, in the end I couldn't hold on and I couldn't let go. I wanted back so bad that I shed layers of my dignity just to be comforted by you. The calmness to my storm. The Absense of you is not being warm. The loss the loss the loss of your company stings and is unique. Reminds me nothing is ever for keeps. Now the mean words left lingers in my ears like ringings and wails and failures and when I turn for a lift your voice is lost. The excitement waned and the new attraction took my place. She can come now to wipe the tears from my face. For the same as was done to me I was to doer of as well. For this is how we let go, for this is love, for this is pain, and these are the chances we took.