Hunger

My name is Jen and I just can't stay clean. I'm weak inside with a tired body- sleepless eyes have sagged my skin
Worry and tension lined my face 
Sugar blows my veins in the night of a hundred lovers-
I tremble to taste some kind of happiness
Again chasing shadows in the dark 
Bringing myself to the brink 
Destruction laces my shoes
In the cold pond I'm sinking in-
Strength and desire do nothing for me 
Countless bottles 
Evaporated 
Before Even touching my lips 
Shaking  from a death I could not control
Whos poverty is over me
With sand beneath my toes I sink
Another drink 
Catastrophic conclusions fill my mind
In the deepest loneliest place you could ever find yourself
Believing you were something else
Someone else
With thousands of wishes waiting to explore 
But no more time and no more health my
Broken hearted 
Glass angel on the shelf 
Dripping tears 
with a reflection we can't see
Lost girl 
Hungry 
Crawl into bed with destiny