Jens hurt

I have babies in the other room 
I can hear them laughing 
It echoes in the room- 
Vibrates and giggles in my womb
Falling freedoms 
Coming too soon
Missing what was lost 
Memories in a cocoon 
Tapping on extasy 
Life around the moon 
Babies become boys 
Holding onto the stars 
With leaping eyes 
Nothing has cost me everything 
Loyalty is no demise 
What do I do with myself 
Stronger 
Still suffering to survive 
What is the point we build up from
This 
Reality teases me 
Risk not yet on the shelf 
Who will love me one day 
Keep me company 
In ill health 
Doin those drugs 
Holding back on hugs
Tears that shed weapons 
Wipe my cheeks 
Your touch was tender, sweet 
I knew you loved me somewhere
Underneath 
Together we cried but my heart was fried
I was translucent with wealth 
But Not enough to keep me real 
Underscore my body 
I'm a shiver away from your touch
Heartbreaks beating I want you so much
Take us back this time 
Wandering in the illusions of yours and mine
Come to savor the flavor of love 
That is yours and mine 
Your voice I like to hear 
Calms my fear 
Roots and all this time 
Too many men on my mind
Drip drop loose 
Drop drip nuse 
Cut those demons loose
Take me back to heal the wound 
That doesn't conceal 
Anymore than truth 
The boys all love it
Pondering youth