latched

My stomach is churning 
Lying in distress 
Recalling the past 
Weighs too much
The trauma continues
Till i take care of myself 
Barfing endless ly over
Bright spots 
Beginning again 
We watch the moves carefully 
Overcoming each one
In the wind shivering 
Where is my mothers cloak
To keep me warm
When is it about me ism 
Take the alcol out you still have ism 
Child too grown 
To be alone 
Waffling in indecision 
Going within again
To come out whole -