Pondering today

We wander in the night alone but bones remember us creeping in life flying by
The faster we go I begin to hunch over 
Explaining How I can never drink alcohol again
Baptized in its power 
Bitter sweet 
We reach relief with resentments untied
I'm sad now 
I realize all I lost but I was silent screaming my voice was the cost

I was alone with you the bed was creeking
Your pleasure was swift 
Eyes tightly closed upon penetration
My Bright smile your missing
Unwrapping shivers 
wiping spills off the wall 
With flannel sheets 
In a 
Pre winter flashbacks 
My Early morning snow 
Dusted car lead me away
Reckless for life 
Ready to abandon the
hopes of a dreary man