Disappointed

With one night of passion I ache in the after math of words 
Men in crystal balls offer me 
Nothing 
Truth I guess 
The reason I'm shaking I'm so 
Scared now 
Nervous you have some power to hurt me now or I must decide 
Untangle how I feel for myself in you 
Intimacy is funny that way 
A distraction not so desperate 
I cannot remember your face
Come back to me quickly 
To take away these anxious spots 
Your not doing what I want 
I can't find you so now where are you
Suspicious in my own skin 
I let you in 
Only to discharge you 
Again
For the second course 
I craved coming back 
Against 
The wall I wanted it

I bit my lip and gave away 
Something I wanted to hide
Instead as I slipped back into your bed
Begging for you to make it right by me