Tundra on the horizon

Frozen aspects of myself thaw the wound of my inner tundra 
Deep sounds verbalize 
tones crystal sharp in the ear
My healing- system settle 
My new favorite words
The nervous system and the brain 
Looking out to see what's in 
Pushing away from a secret
Forming compost piles of lies 
Rotting on the self harm of hurting girls
Bleeding hearts out for boys vicious in the cycles of broken hearts
Remain trying to hide 
Dying 
Intricate in numerous ways
Unloved unquenchable 
The god hole they call it 
Un Changed 
In paper remains like
Memories 
Sharp swords that never went away avoided to this day 
What's the trauma little momma ? 
I don't know it went away
One day words I'm goona say
Floating at rest on the melted sea of my tundra