But here I'm frozen in times of long ago and the stress of never again
Bends my thinking and its dangerous now for those who care about me.
It's dangerous to love a man with wounds; they spoon feed dreams and leave too soon
Staying away from me in the night awkward in the morning light
The boys crush is a lost rush
there isn't much more for me to give in places that will never fit right
Both are broken to me
and second place never feels right
Flashbacks keep me up late
Breathing in water
it's only air I crave in the depth
Of starvations cage
Isolated now
mother makes me eat in hot tears like waves that sting my sensibilities in ways I never dreamed