My belly swollen from new foods
The deep waves crush me in sparkle
I'm not sure i can get away
But I tried and I wanted to die more than once friend after friend helping me
I'm passive always having to break the waves and the chains of bondage that keep me from being free at the price of no freedom
No one is here to help me so I must help myself in quiet places I'm safe
Concealed in the one place where I know where I am we walk in breathing steps not once qualified in places like this before
Give me your dreams tonight I'm so pretty I have been longing to explore more than the depression and fear the losses added up over the years and I a child myself broke from trials and traumas left to be explained
I walked away in hiding lost in places I won't know Til I can let go
There was no hiding this Time
Irrelevant glances from judgements eye
I escaped barely with my life
Gutted in beauty that dies a little more each time
Wet in hidden places I wanted to escape so I did after years of dreaming I made it out- the pain wounding me in ways I work to transform
Years not wasted