Post bells

I'm spilling over with feelings for you
In evident ways I keep my heart from bursting 
I'm sick with clueless love 
In dementia I dream in colors 
Blackened by the night of dreary eyes 
Hoping for a man to come and claim me
Be sweet to me and call me his own
In distant times of wailing in sleepless nights with out pillows to hide under
I want to be with you now in panic I search the night for you
In panic I search the heart for the unrequited letter of return 
Searching hopeless for you 
I vomit in my despair 
Didn't you hear me calling 
Could I come back 
To unbroken dreams 
Could I take the last flower from your garden and press it in between the pages of our love story 
I could if you would let me 
But I'm not well tonight 
I'm searching violently for you 
Crying for bells to ring
Leading me home