faking it

all i know is lost and there isnt really a moment in time that goes by with out me being reminded i am alone. i am single i am one. i heard you say i wasnt but at the end of the day i am, and i no longer wonder whats going on anymore. and because i dont want to know anymore i think i will stop asking and as i stop asking i wonder which way i should go from you. i leave u in uncertainity and your brilliant smile is fading. i feel alone and i sense you less. im not able to compete with your heart in knots. i cannot untie what you binded, but i struggle with words to unwind what i wove. and the frail seek the shelter and the warmpth of a body next to me in bed.  when i hurt i dont want to know whats going on with you, because it became too real and painfull and i realized u would never pull your heart away from your home. that said, that said. in tiny ways i have pushed and pulled all along and against my better judgement i went along. caution flew out of the cage and into a moment weak with rapture our love was played. i wanted to wait for you all night, but you have to disappear before the dawn.