i stayed as long as i could, before my tummy turned and i wanted to leave. all i could think about was coming home. who was waiting for me to crawl in bed. ghosts, denial, mystery, love. i felt far away from my dreams and i wanted to fall asleep and wake up happy. there wanst the option for me anymore. the only distance i have is from my hand to my heart. even my mind is erased by the long night alone under the covers. my baby is in my bed no more. the witness fell the cracks and i couldnt give you forever back. as much as i wanted tom my heart was blue. i sat up into the night and i waited for you.