i woke up sad enough, angry enough and tired enough to do no good. it only took one crabby wave of frustration to unlock my temper and the world to explode in rage. silent no more were the screams and hate has only to do with my lies. in sadness i cry and the heat from my tears burn my cheeks. i want to wake no more, i only want to feel love that has no pain. i cannot find you oh missing love i still search and want and whine. falling only deeper down. tasting less and less in the joy of life. settling for thing i would have never spoken of before. cautioning myself to blame.