its a tuesday

its a tuesday and im missing you today. day three with out you is harder than day one. curiosity boils over me and i realized when i woke my phone would not chime with your love. in silent waves that crash i wonder where you are are whats on your mind today. im not looking for someone else or words to fill the air. i think about your arms and depths of my despair. i have no more secrets to tell and the lies have all been faded. i wonder if i see will you again because my partying is over rated. you told me you werent going to chase me or beg me to come back to you, so i guess i am not waiting and watching for you anymore. but i want to hear your voice and words that rapture me but your real world keeps me away and i dont have any more words to say. i cannot climb that family tree and i find my knees are scraped enough until they bleed.