90 posts

more than half of these posts are about our relationship. from the firey beginning to the distant end. im not sure what really happened or exactly when. but the tide has changed and i think back to the day when it hadnt. your desire for me was quenched and i have sucked every ounce of love from you. now you look at me with out the hope and desire for tomorrow. am i too available now, am i lost somehow unto my own distractions too far for you to reach me. am i repeating your past? am i letting my love and suspicions grow weeds and cold over the small chambers of my heart. is there a way past that into trust and love again? what changed in your mind, your heart that i can see in your aura. you words try to convince me of different but i am preoccupied with loss.