hello-o-o-o-o!!!

i wake up with you here, but where have you gone. lost into your phone in a different time and place. am i chasing tails in the wind as you wind down the path of my demise, following you dotingly, as i ask - am i deceiving myself ? Everything has changed, there aren't dates and texts that chime when i think of you now. there are bad dreams and grumpy mornings. words unspoken and silences that are provoked by my prodding. i keep calm but inside i rage at the change and the tick tock of uncertainty. if i weren't so crazy about you i may not feel so insecure, but you were right the path we started on was laid with deception and now my wonders just wont cease. i question weather to love is worth the risk of the loss, because i think one day it will come and all the walls will break. and the truth will fly with wings that sting like lasers. am i ready nor for then can i put aside my fears and delussions to enjoy what we have long enough to make it last?