Pain shook me again and I thought I would express myself this time- for I lost my fight to live until I could forgive myself-
Then there was surrender and others to embrace me I helped myself to them all-
A woman's call and the roses grounded me and they bloomed when I let go of the way of life I had let consume me- I was no longer in survival mode or so I had told myself as I awoke from dreams and realized something's-
I was still too thin in the skin I was in I was still in control of no control until I let you take control of me- then it happened and I began to heal you see- for the blackened soul wanted to be free- so I drank no more for misery and with time it left me- happy whole and free