But I want to

Cigarette debris trampled beneath me
Fitting in on bus Stop benches 
Mending bones broken from hearts
That left home
The smell downtown activated 
Pavement dancing in the autum heat
Yellow has burst into  leaves feasting in sunlight 
Puking guts befor we speak
Things I woke to tell you lost 
Too much time passed 
Flames fizzle in the solice of my path
Not looking back
Just within 
I don't count on anyone for my happiness
But I can't win u
Befor I have myself
Drink the alcohol on the shelf
Take you in again