Choosing the Lonely

I can't cure my lonliness with you
In small doses I tried 
Catching feelings 
Like rocks in pockets 
That drag me down
No fun for girls who run away
From such things 
As comfort 
I'm not able to give arms
Broken from wanting more
Into the night I wrap myself 
In the heat of my own bed 
This time protected from
The lonliness I fed 
Faced with what I want but can't ask for 
Faced with you
I hide myself 
Isolate in the barriers of my own design
Not giving any of myself this time
To you 
Sleeping alone 
Walking away one hard choice 
I Made today 
Taking my feelings along with myself
Somewhere else 
I don't want to let anyone in
So it begins again 
That I won't 
I'm lost this night 
I walked out alone 
You wanted me to stay 
But you can't give me all 
I say 
So I give nothing in order to keep 
Myself 
Alone 
One more cold night