Drops of pain

I am sad and it never really goes away.
I wait and I reach for bones 
Dry from heat that lead me astray 
Our memories evaporate in time 
I wish you were talking to me
But I don't know know how to say
That in silent ways I wait 
Longing enters the mind 
Spoiled by shapes not seen 
And long forgotten used 
I was used 
I let myself be 
I'm aware 
Awake 
Free 
Take another drink with me
Silent eyes behind lying lips
Your call does not come in 
We flake in moments lost like shadows 
Against walls only we can see
No time for me 
He sits on the edge 
Waiting for me to jump 
But I'm wet 
I like touching 
We are
Soft in our rushing together
Quiet in the mind 
I sail towards you
I like you but you sail away 
Helpless homeless 
What more can I be 
Weather is cold now
Will make it 
You see