Designed for two
Forge a way to myself
I am here and not there
Privately awaiting your arrival
Heal my son lord
Restore what the locusts have eaten
That's all I hear in my mind
Give me strength to tell my story
Wouldn't want to make anyone look bad
Shocking news shocking news
Step one is having a desire to change
Extreme self harm
Who could stop me from myself
Alone home alone scared
Voiceless choice less frightened
Angels calling in the night
Harm was done
Now I am recovering
I think a lot about this 37 years later on a moon lit winters night
Condensation was building
Brilliant sparkling illuminessinat
In the light
The wrong place at the right time
Vise versa feels quite right
Stinking in the night
Loving my babies
Losing my sight
What's happening as I disappear
From their lives
Living with that is so painful
It eats me alive
The struggle I have to survive
Running so far from myself
Little bits spilled out on the shelf
Countless hours gone
Too cold to explore that door
Take away my phone in the night I'm alone here in the light of its glow the tv keeps me from being alone
Temporary friends while everything
Bleeds - I'm sorry all the time as little ones forget me
Loves held dear to all things time does toss in the wishing well
If dreams were as cheap as pennies
Found luckily along the stream would I sponsor someone in my youth the truth in all extremes resting in high beams the things clear in the light
Trauma sin it's all there the darkest of despair psycho tropic drugs take away my sight
Living in the light
Shepard in the blind
Kissing me goodnight
Flowers in posies that day on the field
Floods my mind a love so real I lost my time
Sex was everything that was right but it was heavy with wrong and I could not bear the weight of my sin not that unwanted to tell everyone but ya I did
It wasn't all right
Voices were heard and I celebrated just right I let go I let god in on my knees by faith and not by sight ---11-13-13
Faith flickered and everything was all right
Never mentioned anyone else here tonight just Angela and their legions protecting what's right
Hold my hand tonight