Senses

I don't want to hear about your love for another
I am surrounded with avalanches 
Of broken dreams 
No
Is all she screams 
I have no voice
It's all in my head

Alone 
She lives 
Widow 
Orphan 
Piper to the pan 
Hand me a man
Sometimes 
She gets over 
Herself
Nothing to give you
But this std 
Is that what you want 
Really she says to me
Wreckage all around us
Now are you feeling free 
I am beautiful
But I gave up long ago
Illness took me over
Aneroxia nervousa a disease 
Of the nervous system 
Excess anxiety eats away at me
Gross 
That's what I think of myself 
Hurt
But I think of someone else
Blind