Mistakes in darkness

Thinking about the past in a jumbled fog of complaints never heard. The silence triggered my anger and unresulted fear. 
Weary bones that have broken from stress strain for strength in day that clears the sky
I'm afraid 
Waken from a nightmare
The little voice inside screams but no one heard me
What did I do
I could not see 
Father mother forgive me
As breath turns into life I gave 
My wounds to heal 
In Light that
Traces down on me
Like freedom I am less than free 
Results from choices I couldn't foresee 
Destroyed 
This girl in me
Too much wreckage 
To give into you 
I left in the night 
Not feeling right by my side 
Of the moon 
Left you sleeping 
Agin I left too soon 
What do you want from me 
Room to cocoon wasted 
Freedom is not free
Misery has followed me 
Begin again 
The childhood is almost over 
Quickly erased from time and space 
Unbound 
Unwound 
In denial in angst at things I cannot erase
The victim becomes empowered by not so soon 
Tearing premature from her cocoon 
The man has the power 
The widow cries alone